Letting Go

I’m trembling. Waves of energy are flowing through my body, stirring up the painful emotions that I’ve tucked away under layers of self-protection. The hope and expectations. The disappointments and sorrow. All the longing and desires that were pushed away. Unaccepted. Shamed.

I’m crying. Eyes flooded with salty tears as I grieve the things I’ve craved but never attained. Softness. Intimacy. Sacred union. I cry for all the times my boundaries were crossed, my needs disrespected, and for my lack of awareness—for I did not even know a boundary could be set, needs expressed.

I’m accepting. Years of tension are released as I embrace the totality of that which I am. Lovingly I welcome all aspects of my being. I hold them. Caress them. Invite them into the light. You are safe now, child.

I’m letting go. Shivers through my spine as I surrender to the stillness of my Being. I stop resisting. I’m done analyzing. Thinking. Reflecting. I let go. Slowly I merge with the infinite ocean of love. In the depths of my consciousness I find peace. This is home.

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Featured image: Chiron Duong